# Reality

Brain: Engaged

So the new work rules are going well. Whilst the increase in meds almost certainly is a major player in my confidence levels, working on being a productivity ninja* is definitely helping.  Lis also recommended another book, which I think I will investigate once I have finished getting through the others I also have on the go.  No reviews going to be here for any of them though – wait until I get back into my Netgalley reading list for that one. I’m really good at “discovering” music that everyone else seems to have been listening to for years, but I figured […]

When yes is too much 3

I’m rubbish at saying no to things and it’s not good for my health. I like to be helpful, I don’t like to let people down and I don’t like to admit that I really don’t have the skills to meet a request.  I need to learn to say no, I need the confidence to say “No”. It’s one of the things that pushed me over the edge recently.  I took on too much, then gave myself a hard time for not being able to cope with it all when I felt I really should, got frustrated with myself… took on […]


Oh wow, I think this is the first time in many many years I have actually been happy with the way my blog looks. Go me. So I’m back. Life has changed, unsurprisingly. I’m now the proud(?) owner of an MSc.  However, my brain finally stopped being able to cope with stuff again last week and my GAD has reared its head again. Cue med dose increase and fabulous(!) side effects.  Writing here does help me cope with stuff though as it helps to fend off the brain spirals but these days it seems like even the CBT I had many […]

As Time Goes By 1

All the world’s a stage, and all the men and women merely players: they have their exits and their entrances; and one man in his time plays many parts, his acts being seven ages. – William Shakespeare, As You Like it  I find the ticking of the clock in my living room strangely comforting, even as it slices my existence into anthropocentric made-up units of time.  People treat time as the enemy: it goes too fast when we are enjoying ourselves and too slowly when we want something over and done with.  It changes our bodies in ways that we don’t want, […]

2015: When it’s all said and done

“An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves.” – Bill Vaughan So now we’re reaching the end of one of the most confusing times of the year and people are announcing to the world their New Year’s Resolutions (or their intention to not have any) for 2016.  There’s going to be loads of “Year in Review” type articles/posts appearing across the world.  This isn’t one of them. Before we go any further, I want credit Michelle who answered my plea to twitter for inspiration after suffering mega […]

The Sticks and Stones Fallacy: Words Have Power 1

“For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.” – Audrey Hepburn So it has been a little while since I last posted anything particularly substantial (I’ve been kind of busy helping the newest member of our household settle in), but this article got me actively thinking about feminism again.  Well, to be fair, since my personal epiphany I haven’t stopped mulling over it but Anne‘s words left me contemplating my own experiences – and behaviours. I am particularly lucky. I don’t recall […]